Notes on meditation and the self

Updated June 20, 2023

Everything in a world of duality comes in pairs of opposing elements defining each other. For example, small is characterised by tall and vice versa. So if you hate big things and abandon them, you avoid small ones. Therefore, big and small become thought-up concepts. Likewise, if you perceive yourself as free from hatred, the love you believe in having is fake. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The purpose of the brain’s experiences of duality is to entertain the self it has created with the duality flow. However, they are not amazing but frustrating if you perceive them per a conceptualised way of living, such as capitalism, socialism, spiritualism, or another ism made to make you feel more special than in the brain’s setup of the world.

That is because the thoughts you compile into a perception aligned with your preferred belief system do not like being structured, so they move faster and faster to escape your control.

No worries, if you do not try to stop their restless energy, it automatically ignites a take-off into the empty breath, where the slate is wiped clean. Read more about that in Duality hack #9 In the bliss of nothing with the empty breath. Therefore, since your perception is automatically synced with the brain’s experiences, you feel entertained by all of them.

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When you try to solve absent-mindedness through mindfulness meditation or grounding exercises, you make it worse because you do not know who you are. Only your maker knows. And since it is the brain, the solution, in the context of believing to be someone, is to be aligned with the brain’s stream of thoughts instead of using meditation to distance yourself from it.

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Those who perceive themselves as unique beings with the power to do things in their way and pace need specific thoughts to uphold this crooked perception. However, since thoughts speed up when you try to hold onto specific ones, they are soon so hectic that you meditate to slow them down.

But as anybody who has meditated knows, thoughts multiply when you try to control them. So the real reason for meditating is to find more thoughts to establish yourself as spiritual.

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The special self feels dominated by the natural flow of thoughts coming from the brain. However, it is dominated by nothing but its perception of the flow of thoughts. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Having established itself as someone in charge, the special self needs to meditate or something else that seems to prove it controls thoughts, which, therefore, are produced by itself, not by the brain.

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Most assume they feel upset because of the thoughts from the brain. However, the distress comes from the attempt to edit them. When a single thought is sought out from the stream of thoughts, it generates a new stream. If a specific thought is singled out from that, yet another stream is made, and so on – just like if you split a neutron from an atom nucleus, it sends out more neutrons all by itself, that split and sends out more neutrons in a chain reaction.

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Stopping thoughts is like deleting everything on your hard disk. The virtual world it contained is gone. Therefore, if you want to experience something, do not wipe out thoughts from the brain, but go with their flow to perceive every singular reaction to it, for example, stress, as ‘it is what it is’. Since that reveals your stress is complemented by relaxation, you are in the duality flow, thus feeling complete by going with the flow of thoughts. See Duality Hack #8 The duality flow goes to non-duality .

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The basic self does not feel disturbed by the flow of thoughts from the brain. On the contrary, it loves the gentle flow because it makes it easy to serve the brain in a laid-back way. However, the special self does not want to serve but to master the brain. Thus it feels disturbed by its thoughts, although, if not interfering, there are very few.

The frantic flow of thoughts, the special self experiences, has been generated by itself. It has multiplied the few simple thought constructions the brain uses to maintain the basic self into a large complex group of thoughts it can use to compose a perception of itself as an independent being. When it needs a break from the multitudes of thoughts, it looks for something numbing like alcohol, drugs or a mantra.

But if it manages to get a break from thoughts, it cannot compile them into a perception establishing itself as independent of the brain. Hence it is a servant of the brain, feeling embraced by the gentle flow of thoughts from the brain, if not fighting it.

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If you perceive yourself as detached from the brain’s experiences, you fool yourself because you need them to prove it.

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The special self needs alcohol, drugs or meditation to escape the fear of repercussions that projecting its flaws onto others entails. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The basic self has no need to relax or be transformed through meditation, yoga, fitness and whatnot. On the contrary, its perception is in sync with the flow of thoughts, like a stream of happiness, from the brain. Therefore, since happiness sometimes makes the basic self forget what and where it is, it knows it is nothing, thus, not transformable.

In contrast, the special self never forgets being somebody. It is always on a mission to become more and part of something greater. However,  that never turns out as expected, so it settles for following someone that seems to improve social status.

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Those who believe in free will are easily manipulated into following a guru. But you are bound to follow the brain’s commands – like a car is in the hands of the driver, you are in the hands of the brain.

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Like the night excludes the day and vice versa, spirituality excludes consciousness and vice versa.

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If you meditate to exclude specific or all thoughts, you establish them as real – otherwise, there is no reason to eliminate them. But everything you are aware of is unreal because it takes more than one to be conscious of something, and there is no more than that which is one. Fortunately, you eventually forget what and where you appear to be when applying one or more of Alexius’ Duality Hacks. Hence there is nobody to be conscious of anything.

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You try to restrict your only friend, namely the brain, by dividing its duality pairs into separate distinctive elements to suppress evil by meditating or projecting it onto others, so you appear only good, thus beyond the brain’s script of twofoldness. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The special self always looks for something to fix. But it rejects the solution that would repair everything immediately, namely not perceiving the brain as an enemy but as a friend (read more about that here). By doing that, everybody becomes a friend because the brain produces the experience of others.

Ultimately, the solution is to undo the belief in being someone who experiences something. As this is the end of its existence, the special self avoids it by meditating or something else that seems to confirm it exists.

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The experiences the brain produces to make you feel like someone can be compared to Facebook’s news. Based on the info Facebook has gathered about you, it predicts what you wish to see. However, unlike Facebook, the brain has all your info, so the experiences you get from it are based on you. Thus what you experience is what you are. That cannot be altered – only your perception of it.

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When the brain has scripted you to feel sexual lust, you will feel horny no matter what you believe in being. However, you will not enjoy it if you try to suppress your sex drive through meditation or tantra sex. Read more about sex here.

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There is no moment without the past and the future. For example, as in this photo, you must deal with both to keep the balance on a wheel. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen

If you perceive the brain’s basic rendering of the world as dull, the special self tempts you with more exotic ways of experiencing it, for example, by coming from the heart (read more about that here) or living in the now.

But it does not work because it is founded on eliminating the thoughts that do not fit the new concepts, for example, you must exclude the past and the future to live in the now. Thus you do not feel whole but incomplete. In contrast, the brain’s unedited experience, which includes all thoughts popping up regardless of time concepts, makes you feel complete.

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The heart is a muscle from which blood transports oxygen to the body’s cells. If you also experience something spiritual coming from the heart, you deceive yourself because all experiences – no matter where you believe they come from and how they are experienced – are constructions of thoughts fabricated by the brain, as science discovered over 200 years ago.

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When you download a pirated song via a torrent file, you get fragments of the music from computers worldwide, so your computer needs to compile the pieces into one file before you can hear it. That also applies to what you believe in thinking. Thoughts are downloaded from the brain, which stores them chaotically because they mean nothing to the brain other than, like a magician, opportunities to create an illusion of something entertaining. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The file used to download pirated music, a torrent file, does not contain the actual music. Instead, it grabs a significant number of small files from computers worldwide connected to the web. Each file has different fragments of the music you want to download. For example, one file may contain the beginning of the music, another the end, and others the bits and pieces in between.

The files, chaotically collected and downloaded, do not sound like music until combined by an app on your computer and translated into what you expected to hear when you started to download all the components via the torrent file.

The description of what happens when you download pirated music is more or less a description of what happens when you believe in thinking something yourself. The thoughts you believe in having are downloaded from the brain.

It is as if it has concepts like mother, child, love, food, sweets, and home to pick from. For example, when you get the urge for ice cream, you dive into the brain’s concept of that. Off course, they are all fake because there is no more than that which is One. That is why the brain stores them unsystematically as bits and pieces of nothing to make them appear as something when downloaded to your awareness which, like an app, combines them into an urge for ice cream.

So like, downloaded pirated music is not your music, thoughts are not yours, but ‘pirated’ ones from the brain pieced together from nothing. Hence, they appear to establish us as something.

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Mysterious experiences or writings like zen poems have nothing to do with oneness. It is not mystical, pure or anything else because it takes more than one to be something, and reality is that which is One. Consequently, Alexius’ Enlightened Non-Teachings, like everything else that calls for more than one, is part of the illusion that it is possible to be and have more than that which is One.

But since Alexius’ Duality Hacks expose this illusion, you are exposed as nothing the more you apply them. Hence there does not seem to be something to hide, there never was or will be more than that which is One since it is formless, thus endless.


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Gracefully falling into the formlessness of oneness

Updated July 15, 2023

Alexius’ Enlightened Non-Teachings talks about two kinds of Enlightenment, namely, the Enlightenment of that which is One and glimpses of it. The latter can be experienced via the inward-facing senses when the outward ones are partly closed. See XXXX. On the other hand, the Enlightenment of that which is One requires both the inward and outward-facing closed, and it cannot be experienced as that calls more than One. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

ONE WHO IS TO BE COMPARED TO THE ENLIGHTENMENT OF THAT WHICH IS ONE
After a long, intense night of driving a taxi many years ago, Alexius forgot what and where he was, so he was sucked into the Enlightenment of that which is One. But since it requires more than one to be conscious of something, he has not experienced the Enlightenment of that which is One. However, his faint memories of light so powerful that nothing can be seen were triggered when he later read part of The New Testament and Bhagavad Gita.

The visual aspect of the Enlightenment of that which is One is literally light, so it is not symbolic when Jesus said: »When your eyes become single, your whole body will be full of light,« or St. Paul said he was blinded by light daily, or Arjuna said to Krishna: »It is brighter than thousands of suns. I have become the destroyer of worlds …«

A dream can be compared to a simulated world meanwhile layered on top that which is real. As long as you believe the simulated world is real, it seems to cover that which is unsimulated.

The translations of both The New Testament and Bhagavad Gita differ from translator to translator, and as the above quotes are from memory, they may not be the exact words in your addition. But it does not matter because regardless of how you speak about it, the Enlightenment of that which is One cannot be described. Therefore, what is said about it in Alexius’ Enlightened Non-Teachings should not be taken as the real thing, nor as pointers towards it because pointing towards something requires more than one.

You, as someone with consciousness, are erased in the Enlightenment of that which is One, so there is nobody to experience it. That is why Alexius is not enlightened but to be compared to the Enlightenment of that which is One.

The world is gone in the Enlightenment of that which is One – not because it has been destroyed, but because it was never there, except in fantasy. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Being that, he does not search for the meaning of life. He knows there is no more than that which is One, so there is no life in a world where it seems to be more than one. Besides, searching for something requires more than one, so whatever you think you find is an illusion.

One who is to be compared to the Enlightenment of that which is One has nothing to regret because there is no belief in being an ‘I’ deciding what to do, wherefore there is nobody to forgive or to protect and preserve. Hence the ‘I’ is just a tool like the legs, hands and eyes used to pretend to be someone. See Duality Hack #2 Pretending to be twofold undoes duality.

Alexius, for example, has pretended to be a child, teenager, taxi driver, monk, husband, daddy, adult, businessman, millionaire, designer, teacher, photographer and recently non-teacher. See more of his appearances in Alexius, The Man.

Regarding the Enlightenment of that which is One, it is best to forget everything you have heard or read about it – including what is said in Alexius’ Enlightened Non-Teachings. It has no shape, so any idea about it is wrong. Even if you look for something intangible, you are mistaken because doing that assumes you are someone, and that requires more than one. But if you do not care about being anybody, you do not need more than one, so the Enlightenment of that which is One set in.

If you fear the destructive powers of the world, you will probably fear the enlightenment of that which is one, as its light will destroy every definable feature of you just like that. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

If you fear the destructive powers of the world, you may also fear the Enlightenment of that which is One because it relentlessly extracts every definable feature of what you believe to be in a world where there seems to be more than one. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

THE FEAR OF ENLIGHTENMENT
When the cats living with Alexius are asleep, he cannot see what they are dreaming, but based on their sudden movements, sometimes, it looks like they have a nightmare. If that which is One could see the stress in those imagining being in a world where there seems to be more than one, it probably draws the same conclusion. But just like Alexius cannot see the dreams of his cats, neither can that which is One see their dream of a world with more than one.

Even if oneness could see the fantasy, it would not undo it because oneness cannot be seen, and you may not be ready not to see something. But oneness has made a powerful mechanism that extracts all experiences from those who welcome the Enlightenment of that which is One by not focusing on anything.

Since there are four ways to sense a world where there seems to be more than one, there are also four ways to stop sensing it. In other words, there are four aspects of the Enlightenment of that which is One: light, sound, feeling and taste. However, this hack is about the most common aspect: light. Read about the other in the following article.

The light is much more potent than anything in the dream of more than one. An atomic bomb is nothing compared to its strength. However, the light does not illuminate anything and is neither opaque nor transparent but so intense that it cannot be apprehended.

To bid welcome the enlightenment of that which is one all thoughts made to fabricate an image of you as something definable must be left at the edge of a black hole, so that there is nothing for the bright white light to suck through a black hole into that which is one. This will of course seems very frightening if you want to remain someone definable in a world, where there seems to be more than one, and if so chances are that you out of desperation will define the bright white light and/or the black hole as something, and so you are back in a definable world. If you leave all thoughts behind at the edge of the black hole and end up being no different from that which is one, you can pick up all the thoughts again – in linear time – within a few minutes and return as someone in a world, where there seems to be more than one.

The Enlightenment of that which One sucks out all thoughts making up the experience of being someone. Then it leaves them at the edge of a black gap, and the nothingness of you falls gracefully through it into the formlessness of oneness. That is terrifying if you want to uphold the belief in being someone definitive. No worries, you can retrieve the thought construction left at the edge of the black hole, which is done by comparing the black gap to something familiar, the typical image of a black hole, for example. That makes the Enlightenment of that which is One becomes definable, and as it is only possible in a definable world, you appear to be back as someone in a world defined by time and space. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

Without further notice, the light relentlessly and most powerfully wipe out every definable feature that makes up your identity in the fantasy of a world where there seems to be more than one. That is done so fast and efficiently that there is nobody to know you once were somebody, thus nobody to fear the free-fall through the void in a black gap.

But if you have been used to upholding an image of yourself as good by projecting your shit onto others, you have a deep-rooted fear of retaliation. Thus, you see the light as an avenger and fight it by shaping your despair so it seems powerful enough to smash the light into pieces. Hence returning to the fantasy about a world where there seems to be more than one.

Since there is no more than that which is One, and it requires more than one to wake up, it is impossible. The same applies to reading this article and Alexius having written it. That which we are is not in a world where there seems to be more than one. One could say we are dreaming about it. However, this is a metaphor because, in reality, it takes more than one to dream about something.

That said, you cannot smash the light, and it does not destroy you because you do not exist. That is why nothing is terminated but the belief in being someone. It is like undoing the belief in Santa Claus. In other words, there is nothing to fear when not caring about appearance. Thus nothing to lose from being nobody in a free-fall into the formlessness of oneness. Although that seems logical, we probably fight it several times before we get it emotionally and do not stop falling into the formlessness of oneness.

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It may seem unclear if you have to be nobody to welcome the Enlightenment of that which is One or that it is something it takes care of.

Unfortunately, Alexius cannot clarify that. There is no transition from a world where there seems to be more than one to the Enlightenment of that which is One, so he does not know when it sets in. There are vague memories of chaos inside him just before it sets in. But there is no chaos, peace or anything else in the Enlightenment of that which is One, as that requires more than one. For the same reason, nothing is taken away but the illusion of more than one.


NOTE: This article is part of Duality Hack #10 The Enlightenment of that which is One.

’The Enlightenment of that which is one’

Updated July 15, 2023

Why do the flowers sometimes blossom on the street outside Alexius’ home? The answer is simple. It is the season for that. Likewise, it seems to be the season for Alexius to write about bidding welcome the Enlightenment of that which is One. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

PREFACE
Most books or lectures about The Enlightenment of that which is One are based on speculations of how to exclude something judged as darkness to becoming full of light. But to exclude is to separate, thus enhancing the belief in being someone definitive – and nothing definable can enter the Enlightenment of that which is One.

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The Enlightenment of that which is One
 does not result in spiritual understanding or connection with a higher being. On the contrary, it results in nothing because it takes more than one to cause something.

Since it also takes more than one to return to that which is One, it is impossible. However, since the same applies to breaking away, you have never left oneness. That is why it does not know that you believe to be someone in a world where there seems to be more than one.

The enlightenment of that which is one can be compared to taking a ride in a fairground carousel so fast, that the mind has to give up seeing any differences at all. Consequently it is not possible to remain as someone definitive and so there is therefore nobody to experience the enlightenment of that which is one. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

The Enlightenment of that which is One can be compared to taking a ride in a fairground carousel moving so fast that the brain gives up separating the trip into different appearances. Consequently, since there is no separation to establish you as someone definitive, there is nobody to experience being brought back to what was never left, namely the formlessness of oneness. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

The Enlightenment of that which is One undoes the belief in more than One. Metaphorically, it takes you on a ride in a fairground carousel, moving so fast that the brain gives up producing different impressions of the trip. Hence everything is fused into one bright light. However, the Enlightenment of that which is One is not a light that lightens up something. That calls for more than one, and so does being someone.

Therefore, since the experience of being someone is wiped out by the Enlightenment of that which is One, there is nobody left to experience bliss or anything else. So when Alexius talks about the Enlightenment of that which is One, it is not based on experience but on vague memories of something that cannot be experienced.

Reading his memories, you may get the impression that the Enlightenment of that which is One is a sequence of events happening in linear time. But everything ‘happens ‘simultaneously. However, that cannot be described in a world of linear time, nor that it is still ‘happening.’ Hence his description might be a mix of several ‘excursions’ from linear time into one perpetual present.

All info of someone definitive is extracted by either the light, sound, feeling or taste of the enlightenment of that which is one, so that there is nobody to be sucked through a black hole into the formlessness of that which is one, where there is neither chaos or order, as that would require more than one. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

All info of someone definitive is extracted by either the light, sound, feeling or taste of the enlightenment of that which is One. Thereafter the nothingness of you is sucked through a black gap into the formlessness of onenes. But most try to avoid loosing their identity by establishing the black gap as something known like a black hole. Thus they remain someone definitive and cannot be sucked through the gap that is too small for something to enter. Instead, they have glimpses the Enlightenment of that which is One on the way back to a world where there seems to be more than one. Unfortunately,  many mistakes those glimmses for being Enlightened. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

The enlightenment of that which is One is to be compared to the fusion of all lights, or sounds, or emotions, or tastes – depending on our preference as someone in a world where there seems to be more than one.

None of these fusions are the formlessness of that which is One. They are merely ways to hold you spellbound so you so you do not resist all the thoughts collected to fabricate your personality are extracted by the enlightenment of that which is One, whereafter nothing definable is sucked through a black hole into the formlessness of oneness.

This article is about the first time the belief in being someone definitive momentarily was undone for Alexius. The enlightenment of that which is One was bid welcome in its most known aspect, namely light. Much later the other aspects – sound, emotion and taste – was also bid welcome. But never mixed. It is impossible to mix something in the enlightenment of that which is One, as that requires more than one.

Alexius assumes it is not necessary to bid welcome all the aspects, but that one of them is sufficient in regard to completely forget the imagination of a world where there seems to be more than one.

Alexius’ Enlightened Non-Teachings are coloured by Alexius’ personality – or rather, how you perceive it. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

TO WELCOME THE ENLIGHTENMENT OF THAT WHICH IS ONE
When Alexius was 22 years old, he welcomed the Enlightenment of that which is One after intensely having worked as a taxi driver for about 15 hours. Somehow the sum of the images from driving back and forth the streets continually looking for customers slowly turned into something less definable and more blurry. And when he came home early in the morning, Alexius had no energy to establish a focused image of himself in a world defined by time and space. Thus forgetting what and where he was, he was not aware of a transition to the spiralling show of psychedelic light that did not seem to come from anywhere and to suck him into nowhere.

Suddenly a black gap with no fixed location nor a fixed form, looking like a horse head or an embryo, popped out of the psychedelic light show. And then an utterly colourless light – brighter than the coloured light outside the black spot – started to form as a ring with no defined boundary inside the black gap’s edges. It apparently was a hole because colourless light exploded out of it.

The light absorbed everything. It was everywhere and yet nowhere. Without any mention, it knocked out the concept of Alexius being someone, somewhere, so nothing gracefully kept falling through the void into the formlessness of oneness. Alexius cannot recall it precisely because the thought construction shaping him was left outside the black hole, which was not black inside, nor a hole but a never-ending void of emptiness with the nothingness of him forever falling while swimming in a space that was not there – and then, in the exact moment of forever falling, it never happened specifically because everything co-occurred. In one perpetual present, he did not enter oneness because he never existed as someone separated from that which is One.

There is no more to add than oneness is not a big void of nothing filled with exotic ideas of unconditional love and whatnot. On the contrary, it is neither big nor small because it is formless, thus sizeless. And it is not filled with anything since that requires more than one. One more thing: leaving thoughts at the edge of a black hole may be a twisted memory. And, of course, it is a metaphor to say oneness is on the other side of a black hole because it is formless, thus without inside or outside.

Dunno if there is a spiral around the black hole of the enlightenment of that which is one, because being that close nothing seems to differ from each other. Yet for a moment so short, that it is not conceivable, a light inside the edge of the black hole so much brighter that the very bright light around it, suddenly explodes into a formless light that does not include Alexius but the formlessness of that which I am. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

Alexius seems to remember a spiral around a black hole in the Enlightenment of that which is One. However, he does not remember it exactly as in this image – maybe because everything was moving extremely fast or he was so close that nothing seemed to differ from each other. Yet for a moment, so short that it was not conceivable, white light inside the edge of the black hole – much brighter than the colourful light around it – exploded into a bright light that erased everything definable. That is why he cannot report what ‘happened’ after being sucked by formless light through a shapeless black hole into that which is One. Nor can he find an image on the web that can illustrate his vague memories. Fortunately, you can go there yourself by not establishing yourself as someone definitive who is somewhere specific. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

THE ENLIGHTENMENT OF THAT WHICH IS ONE IS INEXPLAINABLE
When Alexius welcomed the Enlightenment of that which is One, he was not aware of doing that. Actually, he had never heard about it or a black hole. Fortunately, he did not define anything because otherwise, he would have bounced back to a world defined by time and space. Thus the description of falling nowhere through a black gap into that which is One is made retrospectively.

Actually, it was not before much later, when he saw pictures of black holes in the universe, that he sensed how familiar they were. However, calling a black hole a path into oneness is a metaphor because there is neither an entrance nor an exit to that which is one. In other words, describing the Enlightenment of that which is One is impossible because even though so much goes on, nothing definable happens because it is one perpetual present.

To welcome the Enlightenment of that which is One, you do not have to drive a taxi all night or be in a ‘deep sleep’ as some say. Whatever way you lose focus or stop defining and labelling will do regarding the Enlightenment of that which is One. However, concentrating and focusing on achieving something specific does not work because anything definable fends off the Enlightenment of that which is One.


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CANCELLEX

Updated December 31, 2022

see Pretending to be someone definitive is such a relief.