Last night I died from the world again

Updated May 21, 2022

The transmission from outer to inner senses is not gradually but very abrupt and it can seem frightening in the moment you sense the world, as you know it, is gonna be erased. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

The total transmission from the outer to the inward-facing senses is not gradual but very abrupt, and it can seem frightening when you sense that nothing definable will make it through this transition. You and the world, as you know it, is going to be eradicated just like that. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

Just like we have the outward-facing senses to see, hear, feel, smell and taste the physical world, we have inward-facing senses to see, hear, feel, smell and taste a non-physical world. However, to use the inward-facing senses, the outward-facing ones must be more or less turned off. Here you can read more about what and where the inward and outward-facing senses are.

The more you do not focus on something specific in the world that the outward-facing senses seem to produce, the more they are closing down and the less you see a definable world. To be entirely defocused for a moment feels like you die from the world of the outward-facing senses. This might be why the New Testament says that St. Paul died daily.

A complete transition from the outward-facing senses to the inner ones can be very uncomfortable. So some choose to die instead of going through this phase. But most people fight to remain as a person in the world experienced by the outward-facing senses, as that is where they consider life to be.

THE DEFLECTION OF FRIGHTENING FEELINGS
Psychologically speaking, it is said that when suppressed feelings are about to surface, some unconsciously choose to vomit instead of facing them. It is a bit the same in the total transition from outer to inward-facing senses, in the sense that part of you is afraid of the unknown and tries avoiding it by doing something very physical like vomiting.

But it is best to avoid vomiting in the phase of the total transition from outer to inward-facing senses. And instead, face the extreme discomfort by including it precisely as it is without trying to understand or embrace it, so you are what is in the moment and nothing else. Then it is over. It might be easier said than done, and it probably takes a long time to pass the apparent discomfort.

When one of my inward-facing senses opened at a very young age, the outer ones were fully turned off, so there was nothing to block out the Enlightenment of that which is One. I had been driving a taxi for 15 hours and was exhausted to the extent that I confused traffic lights for customers trying to hire a cab.

When I finally returned home from work, there was no energy left to fight the third eye to open up and burn away everything that appeared to be Alexius, so that there was no belief in someone definitive to hide there is no more than the formlessness of that which is One.

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In deep sleep or big exhaustion, you do not sense apparent differences to make a difference, which is the invitation, the Enlightenment of that which is One wait for. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

DEEP, DEEP SLEEP
If either the inward or outward-facing senses are intensely used, the other seems to be in the background. For me, it was the most known aspect of the inward-facing senses that dominated when they opened up, namely the ability to ‘see’ light. Not a light, though, that can be compared to anything you can see with the two eyes of the outward-facing senses.

The Bhagavad Gita compares this light to light from thousands of suns, but I would not do that. To compare it to something is to say there is something to see that can be defined by time and space. It is not a light that illuminates something. There is nothing to see – not even light because there is no consciousness of being someone. There is just light and nothing else.

Soon after, I bid welcome the visual aspect of the Enlightenment of that which is One, the inward-facing ear opened with ethereal harmonies sounding like bells but in a lot crisper and softer way than the mundane ones. Regarding the opening of the third eye, I had no discomfort in the transition. Guess I was too exhausted to fight it. Speaking of the opening of the inward-facing ear, I think it happened in what Buddha called deep sleep.

If you sleep very, very deep, the concept of an ‘I,’ that experience something, is gone, so there is nobody to fight the flow. In such a profound sleep, my inward facing ear opened up. The focus and concentration needed to read books enhance the belief in being and having something specific, contrary to defocusing that initiates the flow towards the formlessness of oneness.

The above is not much of an explanation of deep sleep, but as I have not read the Buddhist statements, which are probably full of fancy names for levels and whatnot, all I know is from deep sleeping myself – or rather not doing it, as there is nobody there. That is why all I have are vague memories.

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Always on the run from something to something better, so that you do not see, that which is you is the best. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

The desire to escape that which is One makes you hang onto the belief that you are someone in a world where there seems to be more than one. That is until you realise, it is yourself that you want to escape, because that which is you is no different from that which is =ne.

TASTING THE SWEETNESS OF ONENESS
To taste the sweetness of that which is One, which is like a flavour of milk and honey with a hint of liquorice or sometimes strawberry was not without discomfort. My body acted like it had been attacked by something dangerous and panicked by making vomit reflexes. But when I did not try to escape it, the panic turned out to be a lid on a jug of a smoothie-like texture that is called the nectar of life in some scriptures.

This is very much told in retrospect because as the Enlightenment as that which is One cannot be experienced, this aspect of it is rather the tastelessness of nothingness. It was not after having had several glimpses of this aspect, which is an experience of a transparent sweet smoothie-like flavour, that I realised I must have bid welcome this aspect of the Enlightenment of that which is One because I had a memory of this taste in its extreme and most pure form, namely the tasteless formlessness of that which is One.

When the biological system of the body does not function anymore, the world of the outward-facing senses cannot be experienced. For almost half an hour, however, you remain in the world of the inward-facing senses, and as it is only in the world of the outward-facing senses the belief in being someone specific can be upheld, nobody is dying. That is if you do not fight the world of the inward-facing senses by holding onto something specific, that reminds you of something in the world of the outward-facing senses.

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In that which is One, you are not anything at all, not even the bubbling sense of oneness. There is not someone to experience it, as that would require more than one. This does not mean that you are gone because that which is you is no different from the formlessness of that which is One. What is gone is that which is not you, namely someone tangible who appears to be in a world where there seems to be more than one. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

LAST NIGHT I FINALLY DIED FROM THE OUTWARD FACING SENSE OF A TANGIBLE WORLD
The inward-facing sense of feeling has not been easy to get in touch with. It took many years of discomfort, vomiting, being hospitalised and at times losing the ability to balance – to mention a few of the disturbing things I have encountered as a person in the world getting closer to this inward-facing sense.

Reading this article later I can tell all memories of discomfort is gone. So do not worry, choosing to go with the flow of the inward-facing senses, you are going to be fine.

But last night, in a very deep sleep, I got so close that I completely died from the outward-facing sense. In other words, the belief in being Alexius was momentarily undone so that the Enlightenment of that which is One was bid welcome – not in a visual but emotional way, though. First, there was discomfort from not feeling my body being separated from the bed. It was as if everything was electric and full of tiny bubbles.

Next, it turned into one feeling of nothingness, in the sense that there was nothing tangible – neither Alexius. Calling it a feeling is not entirely correct because there is nobody to feel it – and nobody to remember it. In other words, what I am writing is based on vague memories that I seem to be able to pick up from what feels very far away and yet right here.

I remember it was not like in a world defined by time and space, where there seemed to be different events happening in sequences of time. There was no time. Everything was happening simultaneously.

It was one perpetual present and still is. This, however, cannot be described in a world of linear time, so it seems as if it happened in the past. Yet there was, and is, no difference between that which I am and the non-tangible feeling of one eternal presence of nothing but sizeless bubbles. This should not be understood that I am in a state like that in a world where there seems to be more than one, but I know I am not there because there is no more than that which is One.

Until that night, I only had glimpses of the emotional aspect of that which is One, which is to emotionally experience the vibration that Aum, Sohang or The Word of God symbolises. The feeling of this vibration can be compared to the feeling you have in the body when quickly drinking the bubbles from a Coca-Cola or sensing a cat’s purring. If you want to learn how to feel and hear this vibration check, Life has no secrets.

How to activate glimpses of the Enlightenment of that which is One, you can read about in the article The four aspects of Enlightenment and how to sample them.

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If you see something in this image, you believe it is possible to be and have more than that which is One and use what you define seeing to fence off the undefinable formlessness of that which is One. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

BACK IN A WORLD WHERE THERE SEEMS TO BE MORE THAN ONE
To leave the Enlightenment of that which is One and reappear as a person in the world of the outward-facing senses, all that is needed is to perceive something, as this is based on separation. I remember from years ago, when I came back from my first intense glimpse of the vibration that Aum, Sohang and The Word of God symbolise, there had been a wish to live as opposed to dying. Of course, such a contrast – or any other for that matter – is only applicable in a world where there seems to be more than one, so again Alexius appeared to be there.

To experience the Enlightenment of that which is One, there must be someone to experience it, but that is not possible, as it takes more than one to experience something. Alexius´ Enlightened Non Teachings therefore discerns between the Enlightenment of that which is One, which cannot be experienced, and glimpses of it, which is an experience of it, that is comparable to watching a movie trailer, that is just a sample of the whole movie.

ANY EXPERIENCE IS AN ILLUSION, AS IT TAKES MORE THAN ONE TO EXPERIENCE SOMETHING, AND THERE IS NO MORE THAN THAT WHICH IS ONE
The outer and inward-facing senses are two sides of the same coin – that is why it is easy to shift between them and why they both are part of a world where there seems to be more than one. In other words, the glimpses of Enlightenment that can be experienced via the inward-facing senses are not the ultimate reality. Well, nothing is.

As a world where there seems to be more than one is an illusion, there is nothing to wake up from and nothing to come back to. If there was a world where there seems to be more than one would not be an illusion. Consequently, this article is as illusionary as a street sign pointing towards for example New York. It is just a pointer and not what it is pointing towards.

We all know, the world presented to us in a set of virtual reality glasses is not real. Yet most have forgotten, that neither is the world presented to us by the senses. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

We all know, that the world experienced in a set of virtual reality glasses is virtual. Yet that applies to everything experienced because that requires more than one, and there is no more than that which is One since it is formless, thus endless. The graphic is grabbed from the web.

We all know that within the framework of a world where there seems to be more than one, the world simulated in virtual reality glasses is not real and that when you take off the glasses, everything that appeared to be in the virtual world disappears, so that is not something to disturb you from seeing what is supposed to be the real world.

The world of the inward-facing senses with glimpses of the Enlightenment of that which is One shows us the same is true regarding the world experienced with the outward-facing senses because it fades out the more the outward-facing senses are turned inwards.

When the Enlightenment of that which is One is bid welcome, there is nothing to experience, as it takes more than one to experience something.

But the experience of this world** full of lucid light, ethereal music, sweet nectar or bubbles of nothingness disappears, if the outward-facing senses are entirely closed off, as the contrasts that glimpses of Enlightenment seem to be made off, will dissolve, so there are no glimpses to experience, neither somebody specific to experience them – and therefore not something to hide, there is nothing but one perpetual present.

Please do not take the expression in Alexius’ Duality Hacks about an inward and outward-facing senses too literal. It should not be understood as there is a world inside of you and another outside. There is nothing inside or outside of you. The world of the inward-facing senses refers to a world, not experienced to be outside of you.

From the perspective of a world where oneness is divided into more than one, there is nothing in that which is One. But from the standpoint of oneness – though no such thing is possible, as it requires more than one to have a view of something – there is everything in that which One, as it is formless and therefore never ends.

Kind regards
Alexius


Pretending to be a person in a hospital after a reboot.

Rebooted in a hospital where they spoke a language foreign to me except for the language of their laughter, I pretended to be someone having fun in their world, which is easy when you know that they are not me is make-believe. Photo © Alexius Jorgensen.

NOTE ABOUT DYING FROM THE WORLD OF THE OUTWARD-FACING SENSES
To die from the outward-facing senses and return to them again can be compared to rebooting a computer. You feel like a blank slate when coming back. The transition though of leaving the imagination of a world where there seems to be more than one and going where you cannot go, namely where there is no more than the formlessness of that which is One, can be full of fear and discomfort, and that there is a chance, you will not make it back to a world where there seems to be more than one fully intact. There are no guarantees.

NOTE ABOUT MULTITASKING BETWEEN INWARD AND OUTWARD-FACING SENSES
When you open up to the inward-facing senses, they reveal their world of their own accord, which might be inconvenient in regards to the world that is experienced with the outward-facing senses, so make sure to stay away from things and places where the focus on the world of the outward-facing senses is needed when you sense the inward-facing senses are knocking at the door.

This is not a problem, though, if you connect with the empty breath, as its function is to be an automatic gear between the inner and outward-facing senses. You can read about this in hack #4, A state of not-knowing is nothing but bliss. If you quickly want to connect with the empty breath, check out Take-offs into the empty breathWhere to find the bliss of the empty breathHow to ignite a take-off into the empty breath, and What does the empty breath feel like?.


NOTE: This article is part of hack #6.1 From the inward-facing senses through a black hole into that which is One.